I'm sorry I havn't been here for a while guys (those of you who'll ever check).
The past 38 havn't been easy for me at all. I'm now at a major cross roads in life I now feel and the decisions that I make could either make or break me in the future. I'm afraid I can't go into too much detail in a public forum now but I do have pther stuff to say.
Two years ago I set up my email account - sat_at_the_sidelines. It didn't really mean much then, but it could be used as a good description for me in life. However when I set this blog up I decided my name should be moving_of_the_sidelines. For me it signified a change. However, when this account changed to a google account my email 'came back to huant me' as it were. I think it would be safe to say that's what has happened in reality also in my life. I'm not condeming this, however. The last little chapter of life I've been through has been grotty and soul destroying. I'm guess I'm now past the question 'Is Staple Hill SA for me?' and I've now moved onto 'Is the Army for me?' and If I'm having a really bad day 'Is God really for me?'
I can't deny God's existance - I've seen too much, but, well with life as it is somtimes it's hard to see the land beyond the fog and it's been a lot like that recently.
Well, now you all know that I'm still alive. (If your looking). I'll try and keep people better updated on things.
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I'm looking! Although I had kinda already noticed that you were still alive, what with seeing you every day and that...
Hi Ben
We've never met as far as I know. I got to your blog by following a link from your post on my son's blog (Glyn Harries).
I've just spent half an hour reading through your blog entries and have been moved by the pain and confusion you seem to have been going through. I want to be able to write something wise and wonderful that will make things right but I can't. But I do want you to know that there is a God in Heaven who thinks you are wonderful. He loves you more than you could ever know and it breaks His heart to see you in such pain. So why doesn't He do something about it? I don't know for sure but my experience is He sometimes allows us to go through the dark times to strengthen our spiritual muscle and help us to grow tall.
Hang on in there Ben. I have added you to my prayer diary and if you ever want to chat (email or phone) simply post a blog on Glyn's site or look up my number or e-mail address in the Dispo.
God bless
Elwyn
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